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hey guys , here to blog . actually dad came back during last sunday ? and i didn't blog . haha , don't wish too . cause i don't have words to write , or story to share . (: . nowadays , went to school , simply have lesson , as usual. but sometimes during lesson time, i was staring in the space . did not really listen if i dislike the subject . my class are worst . does not study , do not pay attention and sometimes even do sickening thing . gosh ! even when teacher came in , they are still joke with it , everyone does not have an study attidute ? didn't mean to offend them , but it's true . but i should really say this class are quite good . they won't really go and disiao you , but rather , they will make you laugh like mad . this is what i can say , the best thing is , they made me laugh . i like this class , but not love , :D ! hahahaha ! recently had brought a book ; the end of the world , was quite nice to read . the story means how a girl being forced to become sex slave . gosh ! damn cool . lol . read one chapter and a half . but got alot of chim words , which i dunno what they talking about . but then i could get the picture , roughly . heh . then what next leh ? hmmm , i have join co , this few lesson have been listening to how they played . but i've had no decide which instrument to take . ); sian . their syf going to come in another three weeks time , and i can't join as is too late , and can't catch up with them le . but it doesn't matter , as long as i can go there and see them play , i'm okay with it . i think now i'd should better choose what instrument to take , and train on it , hard ! talk about friendship now ? hehe .  From january until now , me and my friend have qurral over and over again . every month at least one qurral . and i dunno what's all that qurral means . maybe i doesn't know them well , maybe i've had an attidute problem , maybe i'm not really good towards friend . all i know , and i can say is maybe . i dunno what to do . it seems like i was the one always wanted all those qurrals . but no , i don't wish too . i don't want to either . i always hopping atleast one person in the group know me that well , but none . shag .. you all everytime like see me so happy , so hyper in the group , but i'm not . you all always said that you all in a class , and i'm in c class . i'm seems not to care but i did care alot . that's why i'm trying to boost up my study , and get the best i can . then you all keep talking to me about how your class was so good blah blah , and i must react that i don't care . and reply , ' wah ! really ? and then laugh ' . how you all feel when others talking about their class thing and you are the one being left out ? i don't want to say it out loud , because i know you five people , can shoot me in one shot , just by a word . and how i'm going to say ? that's why everytime when going out with you all , i was listening to song . probably you all doesnt know that , cause i did not say out . in that class i'm really all alone . pe , i only can run by myself , ve i can only sit alone or with one friend not a group . i dunno whether you all know my feeling in that class , but yet everytime only give me attidute . i can bear one , but not the whole group . sometimes even not my fault , i when to see them and it became my fault . i don't really know what to say , but just kept quiet . every words that came out from you all mouth , i took it real . no matter is joking or serious. i care for you all , but yet i duno you all care for me mah . till sec3 , i've think from sec 1 until now , i realise like i'm alone . sec 2 , catherine got choiyee , minchang got nicole , choiyee got nicole ? and who got me ? priscilla ? i know that you all trust me with you all secret . i know all of you all de secret . only priscilla , i don't know. and i realise that i'm just an rubbish bin ! ihave to let you all so much , and who let me ? if you all really care , anwere my question . what will i do , if i'm sad ? do i have any secret ? what will i do if i'm angry ? what's my real laughter like ? where is my favourtie place to go , whenever i'm stress , or i have any problem ? who will be my best friend in the group ? who is the most trusted person i trust in the group ? what secret do i have ? i bet no one in the group will answere all this right ! if one person really did answere it right , then you're really the care who cares about me the most . is not that i want to hint you all something . is just that , i wish to have a friendship like yizhuang's group . they really care , and they have understanding for each other . they always be the hyper one's . i envy them . i know different groups have different way to treat each other , have different cares for each other . but i just envy them . i just wish that our group could be better . we can have a better friendship starting from this month onwards ? i hope so . - Bye everyone ! ending my long post , :D ! |