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20110329
hey guys , here to blog . actually dad came back during last sunday ? and i didn't blog . haha , don't wish too . cause i don't have words to write , or story to share . (: . nowadays , went to school , simply have lesson , as usual. but sometimes during lesson time, i was staring in the space . did not really listen if i dislike the subject . my class are worst . does not study , do not pay attention and sometimes even do sickening thing . gosh ! even when teacher came in , they are still joke with it , everyone does not have an study attidute ? didn't mean to offend them , but it's true . but i should really say this class are quite good . they won't really go and disiao you , but rather , they will make you laugh like mad . this is what i can say , the best thing is , they made me laugh . i like this class , but not love , :D ! hahahaha ! recently had brought a book ; the end of the world , was quite nice to read . the story means how a girl being forced to become sex slave . gosh ! damn cool . lol . read one chapter and a half . but got alot of chim words , which i dunno what they talking about . but then i could get the picture , roughly . heh . then what next leh ? hmmm , i have join co , this few lesson have been listening to how they played . but i've had no decide which instrument to take . ); sian . their syf going to come in another three weeks time , and i can't join as is too late , and can't catch up with them le . but it doesn't matter , as long as i can go there and see them play , i'm okay with it . i think now i'd should better choose what instrument to take , and train on it , hard ! talk about friendship now ? hehe .  From january until now , me and my friend have qurral over and over again . every month at least one qurral . and i dunno what's all that qurral means . maybe i doesn't know them well , maybe i've had an attidute problem , maybe i'm not really good towards friend . all i know , and i can say is maybe . i dunno what to do . it seems like i was the one always wanted all those qurrals . but no , i don't wish too . i don't want to either . i always hopping atleast one person in the group know me that well , but none . shag .. you all everytime like see me so happy , so hyper in the group , but i'm not . you all always said that you all in a class , and i'm in c class . i'm seems not to care but i did care alot . that's why i'm trying to boost up my study , and get the best i can . then you all keep talking to me about how your class was so good blah blah , and i must react that i don't care . and reply , ' wah ! really ? and then laugh ' . how you all feel when others talking about their class thing and you are the one being left out ? i don't want to say it out loud , because i know you five people , can shoot me in one shot , just by a word . and how i'm going to say ? that's why everytime when going out with you all , i was listening to song . probably you all doesnt know that , cause i did not say out . in that class i'm really all alone . pe , i only can run by myself , ve i can only sit alone or with one friend not a group . i dunno whether you all know my feeling in that class , but yet everytime only give me attidute . i can bear one , but not the whole group . sometimes even not my fault , i when to see them and it became my fault . i don't really know what to say , but just kept quiet . every words that came out from you all mouth , i took it real . no matter is joking or serious. i care for you all , but yet i duno you all care for me mah . till sec3 , i've think from sec 1 until now , i realise like i'm alone . sec 2 , catherine got choiyee , minchang got nicole , choiyee got nicole ? and who got me ? priscilla ? i know that you all trust me with you all secret . i know all of you all de secret . only priscilla , i don't know. and i realise that i'm just an rubbish bin ! ihave to let you all so much , and who let me ? if you all really care , anwere my question . what will i do , if i'm sad ? do i have any secret ? what will i do if i'm angry ? what's my real laughter like ? where is my favourtie place to go , whenever i'm stress , or i have any problem ? who will be my best friend in the group ? who is the most trusted person i trust in the group ? what secret do i have ? i bet no one in the group will answere all this right ! if one person really did answere it right , then you're really the care who cares about me the most . is not that i want to hint you all something . is just that , i wish to have a friendship like yizhuang's group . they really care , and they have understanding for each other . they always be the hyper one's . i envy them . i know different groups have different way to treat each other , have different cares for each other . but i just envy them . i just wish that our group could be better . we can have a better friendship starting from this month onwards ? i hope so . - Bye everyone ! ending my long post , :D ! |
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20110317
 I wish that everything could remain as now , remain as what it is . I have the 'FRIENDSHIP' feeling back . I don't wish that it would fade , just like those few months ! Shagg ah ! I don't really remembers what happen during those months , but i do know that i was be being unreasonable . Always picking on others , everytime just over a small things , and yet qurrals here and there . I wish i could just change back my attidute back to the past , but then i just don't know how to . I wish there's a great magical grandma beside me , the show that we watch when we are small , i forget the title . But i did recall the show , there's a grandma who got great magical powers . I wished she was beside me and fulfill everything in my heart . So that i won't be so hard , finding all those unknown answere . And yet is not i want de answere ! -.- . I was given lots of chances , yet i didn't cherish all those chances , and i kept wasting it . Haix , . You should i do now is that , keep all things remain . And stop all my nonsence . If like this would make me more happier , i would do . Cause i want my ownself to be happy ! And that's all i wish the most ! I could ne happier , happier ! Everyday smiling ! That's what i crave for the most now ! :DHmmm , tmr go catherine house bake cake ? Haha ! Hope it's sucessful . My father shouldn't be back on saturday le , D: ! I'm waiting for him to come back yet he don't . I ask to buy me musical box ! And hope china have it . :D . |
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20110316
 BLAHHHHHHHHH ! Back ! HAHAHAHAHH ! Today sleep until 11 plus wake up ? Yao dao 12 . :D . Shiock ! Then cook , all prepare , went off to meet catherine and ehr di at 1.30 plus plus . Meet at 2tou indian shop and off to northpoint . Went to KFC and eat . Chat there ; LAMEEE JOKES ! LOL ! Then about 2 plus like this went to popular ! HAHAHHA ! Ohmygod , i found alot of musical of box , i want to buy ! But then need save money , now no money , ): . Sian ttm ! Nevermind , went to minitoons . Saw new arrival 'FAKE DOGS' , they stated that when we claps our hand the dogs will bark , after that i followed the instruction , in the end the dog never barks ! XIASUAY sial , ohmy god ! D: . Hahahah , then shop shop . Went to KLam's , AHHH ! My musical box again , with catherine di at there play . Play until very shuang liao , they say yao go out liao . Haiyo ! Then wanted to go comics connection , in the raining never go . Somemore no umbrealla . Then jiu shop shop around northpoint le . Choose so long for jiangyi birthday present , in the end never buy , cause dunno what guys like ! Guy present are the most diffcult to choose de ! GOSH ! Lol . Just check cakes recipes , then check check check , check until books ! Ohmygod , NICHOLAS SPARKS , ♥ ! Damn love his books . I'm gonna buy his book le ! Tell my mum soon ! HAHHAHA ! His story are cool ! Such a good novel ! ♥ . Alright , i shall stop . Gonna download song liao ! Bye , |
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20110314
 HELLO ! Back ! After one week , eh ? That's was like finally i update . LOL ! Lameee ~ ! Let's talk about last week & this week . Last week , got ptc and etc all . Ptc , Matthew talk to my mum . She's say good about me , i was shocked ! HAHAHHA ! I pass all , but result isn't that good . Mid-year , final year Chiong liao ! If not next year struggle , and i don't want . I need to buck up my english real fast . If not sure will dropped dao siao . Now only borader-line pass ! -.- . DISLIKE ! Yesterday , went to pungol for fishing ? Did not fish , cause i do not know how to fish . Went to beach and played with alot of kids , and paly with one dogs . Cute lah , that mini . From evening until now , blow the whole evening of cold air , shuang . Yesterday went there did think alot , and i've try to let things go there , and let everything float in the sea , until far far ! So i wll have no fan nao ! Damn nice yesterday ! (Y) . Back home about 8 plus going 9 ! Full of sand ! Bath , rest , sleep . Today had tuition from 3 until 7 like this ? Wah ! Damn tired . Tmr gonna rest . Sian , hoilday seems that i can't go out . Sian ttm lah ! Always stay at home . Ohh , i've brought cake things ! And i'm going to try to do it on this week ? Probably . Shall see first . Hmmm , tmr can't go out . Need to stay at home . Haha ! Change blogskins , look abit weird i know . But don't care . Pekchek , cannot put song . Don't wanna put liao lah ! Just let it be . -.- Okay , shall stop here . I'm going to orhorh soon le ! ZAI JIAN ! :D |
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20110305
 HEYYYYYYYYYYYY ~ ! BACK ! HAHAHAHHAHA ! LAst few weeks , had common test and many things . Sian . This week and next week get back result . I've taken three result back but not all , did pass . But just pass just pass like this . Sian ! If never work hard sure fail ! D: . Alright , talk about today bah . Whole day down , not sleep jiu shi do help mum do housework , if not jiu shi watch tv . Boring ! Superrrrrrrr boring ! Night , went for dinner ! HAHAHAH ! Did had a great fun eating , and chatting . I think this three months , today i laugh the most kisiao want . And very hyper ! I dunno why , but isn't it great ? Can laugh all you want , rather than sad thinking all those unwanted things ? Haha !! After three months , i've realise that i'm change throughly . I've completely change to a person whom i dunno who i am anymore le . I just dunno why ! Haix .. I don't even know how to change back to myslef . Or i never once myself at all ?! I JUST DUNOOOOOOO LAH ! -.- . Forget it , everything take one step count one step . I just dunno whether i do the right things to just treat my friends like this . I just wanted to run , and not to think about this , but it everytime , everyday came into my mindd . Haix , should i be back myself ? I just feel i'm weaker in that group , i no longer feels the friendship in the group . I dunno why everything became like this . You all did treat me good , but i dunno why i treat you all like this . Maybe you five are in a class , in a group , but i just ownself at that fucking class . I see you all everytime like pair sit together or group , i seems not to care , but i did care alot . D: . HAIX ! Suan le , everything already become what can i do ? Just let it be bah .. I'm finding a muscial box ! I want a musical box ! And i'm searching for cake recipes . HAHAHAH ! I interested in cake this few days ! :D . I'm tired le , tmr i'm having tuition , so i'm gonna sleep early . BYE ! |